Actually, I don't worry as much as I used to. Earlier in my career, if a baby was not doing well, I would wonder what I might have done wrong. Now, after more experience, I realize that if a baby is not doing well after I've done everything I can think of, it's more likely because he's very sick and nobody can make him better, and not because I've screwed up. Now, I don't worry as much as I used to, but I still think and wonder about things.
I think about the mother whose delivery I just went to, who's 23 years old and just had her fifth baby, and who weighs 370 pounds. I wonder how long she'll live, and when she'll start having knee and back pain, and how big her kids will be when they're 23 years old. I think about the 6 year old patient of a pediatrician friend of mine, who weighs 160 pounds already. I think about the 17 year old who just delivered her first baby. Will she have five babies by the time whe's 23 years old? And then I think about the 18 year old who just had her third baby.
Sometimes I worry I think too much....